Wanted to skip the gym, just because I was tired, and I have to wake up early, but I still went.
I thought about how I would feel if I didn’t go tonight. I would feel guilty, and I thought about what I would be doing instead. I wouldn’t have been able to sleep yet, and I might have found something to snack on like I used to at this time of day.
So I decided to go, just for like ten minutes, because its something. I stayed for about 20, and I feel so glad I went. I don’t feel any guilt, and I know I did something good for myself.
Its hard to get into a routine, I think one gets accustomed quite easily to those guilty feelings. I was just used to not doing anything, and then feeling bad about that, and then eating to feel better, and then feeling bad about eating. I didn’t know any different.
After about a week of regular exercise, I now know what its like to not feel that way, and I don’t want to go back to it. I look forward to avoiding that routine now, it feels good. I haven’t seen any results yet, but I will eventually, if I keep this up.